mood: ..upset. :/

I miss Paige. I can't get over how drastically she's changed. She was so sweet and emotionally identical to me when she lived here -- my other half. Now, her life simply revolves around having sex with Andrew. She told me I put no effort into our friendship. She told me I was stupid, and never helped. She told me over and over. And she told me she hated me. I don't even really know how to explain how deeply I took that to heart. And now she's coming back. Probably to be welcomed by all her "stupid Stow" friends with open arms and hearts. Probably to be invited right onto the softball team, without tryouts. Probably to tell everyone what a terrible person I am, and ruin any stability I've attempted to keep here after she left. .. and I still miss my bestfriend so much.

<3leah

mood: talkative, but aren't I always? (:

So today was MCAS, long comp. That went pretty well. I also got the highest grade in my biology class on our last test, 97! Sweet.  We had a scrimmage today vs. Lunenburg and Griffles put me as lead-off in the batting order 0:) I scored three runs, stole second, third, and home, and yeah. I was happy. Tomorrow I'll be getting back a math test annd my re-take french test, so that should be interesting.

Andrew's been wicked busy lately. Well, okay, he's always busy. haha. He's not even going to be around during April Vacation. I'm going to lose a ton of weight that week. I'll run every day, not eat, and.. yeah that's the plan hahaha. I hate that we have to take off all jewelery for sports. You can completely see the scars on my arms and hands. It's cool.. whatever. Anyways, yeah I've been really busy lately too. Like, this weekend. Friday I have an away game in Shrewsbury, Saturday I have MICCA and battle of the bands and Andrew wants to hang out like alllll at onceeee, and Sunday = Palm Sunday / Confirmation. hoorah. Brendan has been pretty bummed out lately. AP Bio really stresses him out. His birthday is next week, and I'm gonna bake him a cake like I do every year. But, I don't know what to decorate it with. Last year we had the whole Spiderman vibe goin on, and this year.. I got nada. I mean unless he expects me to create Tay Swift. HA. No thank you! I think I'll try and do a guitar or something. A guitar, or.. uh. Nope that's all I got haha. nkldasnkldsa.

I'm gonna go shooooowerrrrrrrr

<3leah

:)